thoughts

thought 1
everything was a lot simpler when i had no friends. really.
there was none of this 'fuck he is so cute' or 'he is so attractive but will never go out with me'
i was quite happy as a loner. really. wish i could go back to being 14 again.
but that's just silly, you say, tori be happy you have friends!
psssh. okay, so i am kind of happy i have friends because they are amazing and i love them and they actually accept me despite my crazy facebook marriages and religious admiration of doctor who.
maybe things aren't as bad as i once thought....
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thought 2
you know when you tell somebody something, as a joke, in a lighthearted manner, but you forget to mention it was a joke and assume they understood when they reply with 'haha' or 'lol' ? then, of course, they go tell another person, not mentioning it was a joke and not serious, and that person gets all angry and 'up in yo grill' over this apparently massive issue that wasn't actually an issue in the first place? yeah. i'm pretty sure that's what's happening now
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thought 3
possums scare the living daylights out of me. there is one outside my window right now. it is making a lot of strange noises. i cannot sleep. i'm tempted to put flour on the ground again tomorrow night just to make sure it's not actually my stalker watching me sleep....
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thought 4
i seem to mess things up really easily. it's mainly because i change my mind so rapidly and then don't know how i feel about certain issues, and when people ask me about these issues i end up making a fool of myself and saying things i don't mean to try and hide my confusion. like i'm doing now. i think.
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thought 5
my phone is out of battery. it's not like i'm expecting a text or anything. i messages someone, but i don't expect them to reply... but anyway
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thought 6
i want to know how the tree i like is doing. i plan to check this tomorrow. i'll report back later on this issue. watch this space.
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thought 7
there are those times where you think it's going to be absolutely terrible, but it ends up being fantastic, and then it's all over in an instant and they're leaving and you feel just as nervous and let down as you did before....
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thought 8
i know you're reading this. stalker. i'm going to have to find another outlet for my opinions of you, because you've found this one. but before you run off to try and find my other blog, which by the way you will not find, know that i do in fact think you are wonderful, i'm just doubtful that you still feel anything for me. really, it's happened before.
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thought 10
seven ate nine.
did i ever tell you about the boy i met on kangaroo island when i was... 10? well that's a story for another day then :)