Went to a party last night
This post can't end well
It was a horror party, i went as a Vampire girl from the Doctor Who episode Vampires in Venice. If you live in Australia it was on this afternoon at about 5/5:30pm on ABC1
Anyway, he was there, of course, looking lovely in his skinny jeans. GAH.
I had a bit to drink... Well, i mean, i didn't realise how much alcohol was in the punch until this morning, apparently there was almost an entire bottle of Smirnoff in that shit, and i had like 6 glasses of that. In between those i had two tequila shots. Keeping in mind i've never before drank anything substantial.
At the time i was just a little hyper, nothing out of the ordinary. Of course, there was the walk down to the beach where i stood up to my waist in the ocean, with my phone in my pocket of course, contemplating drowning myself just to see how long it would take my friends, who were about 700 meters away, to notice. Of course, when i say 700 meters away, i actually mean, like, 20.
He followed me though, kept hugging me and stuff.
But it was really amazing, because there were these bioluminescent organisms in the water, so when you walk through it or move your arms through the water, they start to glow a blue-green colour. It was as if you were dipping your arm into a pitch black night sky, and temporarily turning on the stars. I spent a great deal of time causing those organisms to glow, i think being intoxicated made it more interesting than it should have been. Then there was the sudden realisation that my phone was still in my pocket and i'd been in the water for a good 5 minutes... yeah, not so good! It's currently sitting, dismantled, in a bowl of rice. If anyone has any other suggestions that don't cost me a new phone or $150 of repair work, i'm all ears!
Not literally, that would be a weird sight
Anyway, three of us were spooning on one single mattress, which was fun for a while until we realised it really wasn't going to work, so we grabbed a spare swag that was lying around. Inevitable i ended up on the join between the two. We were in bed by about 4:30AM, but didn't really get to sleep until 5:30
He kept sneaking his arm around me, it was nice. But i'm more confused than ever, i mean, he was acting like we're a couple, yet he doesn't want to be a couple?
If i didn't bloody like him so much i'd let it go. Literally. I'd say that i'm too confused about the whole deal and that it was probably best if he left me alone. But i'm so sure that in the long run it could work, you know, be my first proper relationship? Hugging regularly and spooning is the most i've ever done with.. well... anyone really. I never really spooned my best friend, even. Yet i'm still not in a relationship?
Maybe i'm worrying about it too much... i mean, i don't need to label it, do i?
I hate over-thinking everything.
On a more positive note, depending on how you look at it, i now have a legit reason to not drink?
"Why don't you drink, Tori?" 'Last time i drank, i got kinda smashed and tried to drown myself, which of course resulted in my phone receiving extensive water damage'
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