"Gilbert darling, don't lets ever be afraid of things. It's such dreadful slavery. Let's be daring and adventurous and expectant. Let's dance to meet life and all it can bring to us, even if it brings scads of trouble and typhoid and twins!"
Do you know what i'm afraid of? Not the dark. Not being alone or lost or death or anything like that. I'm not afraid i'll never find someone to love me, i'm not afraid i'll get murdered and i'm not afraid of choking on small objects, which is apparently a very serious fear that some percentage of the population experience. They worry too much in my opinion.
Where was i? Oh, right, the thing i am afraid of... i appear to have forgotten what it was. Oh well.
You know what? I don't really enjoy Nursing. No, that's a lie, I enjoy Nursing, i'm just not passionate about it.
I wonder what i am passionate about... i'm sure i'll find out in due course. It'll probably be something cheesy like a person or something. Cody, watch out.
Maybe that's it, i'm afraid i'll never find my "calling" in life... it certainly isn't Nursing. Well, it might be a specific field of Nursing, and i just haven't realised it yet. I don't know. But somehow i don't think it is Art, either... So i'm feeling lost at the moment. It's not a good feeling.
Maybe i will go live under a bridge and fling stones at small children.
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