And these are a few of my favourite things

things smells that i love :)
~ Wood fires. I particularly love the smell of burning pine, but rosewood is nice too.
~ Rain and the way everything smells after a downpour.
~ Lavender
~ Freshly washed sheets.
~ Mum's perfume and Dad's aftershave. These two smells will stay with me forever, i think, and have so many memories attached to them.
~ Freshly mown grass.
~ Old books and new books alike.
~ That quick burst of smell you get when you open a new tin of biscuits.
~ Cinnamon
~ Pine trees
~ The ocean
and Hot cups of herbal tea.

It's always interesting to find out other people's favourite smells, and to see what you have in common!

For the time being, everything is fine and dandy

He wrote me a letter to better explain, the reasons that he is feeling this disdain.

He referenced Harry Potter to elucidate the situation.
How is he real?
More importantly; how did i get so lucky??!

Basically; everything is fine. He isn't going anywhere just yet.

I suppose i should write about something else now, so you don't all think that the only thing i ever think about anymore is my boyfriend!
aaahhhh that was odd. "my boyfriend" HAH i typed it again!! sostrangesostrangesostrangesooooosstrraaanggeeeee but good. very very very good.

UNI
I've started my second week, i still don't have all my text books and therefore i am behind on my readings already. Even though we weren't assigned readings for last week. I tend to be two weeks ahead on my readings usually, so being one week behind is hell.
I was far too upset in yesterday's Lifespan Development lecture to actually take any notes. So i just drew a tea set. I will post a picture of it at the bottom ^_^ But that means i have to go online and re-listen to the lecture, take notes, retain information etc etc.

LIFE
I've been alright so far this year. I, like most people, get bursts of depression now and then. Sometimes i'm actually kinda suicidal, though it's never all that serious? I know i would never go through with it, i value my life too much, but i toy with the idea when i'm in that frame of mind. I've only had a few though, and they weren't too bad. So things are looking up :)

That was... heavy

I wont go into extreme details, but we pretty much spent like 3 hours discussing religion, and this weight he feels, (which apparently feels like guilt though he doesn't know what for) and whenever he thinks of me he feels this weight or guilt.

I'm trying to help him fix it, to not give up on what we have, because it's amazing, and the greatest thing that has happened to me in a while. But if he can't shake this feeling, then i'm willing to let him go, so he can be rid of it. A lot of heartbreak for me, but i'd rather him be happy..

I am really going to hate Wednesdays

How my Wednesday went

I had to be up at 5:30 to leave by 6:15. I got to the city at 7, grabbed a coffee, and was outside my tutorial room waiting for 45 minutes for my class to start. Then i walked to the Botanical gardens after 2 hours of a class and buying a Tshirt, caught a butterfly, discovered a previously unknown section of the gardens, rolled down a hill and made a chain of african violets and left it on a stone. Then i grabbed another coffee, looked at stationary, realised i do not have a diary still, didn't buy one due to lack of money after having several coffees. Saw people at the other campus, which i walked to. Got lunch. Got another coffee. Went to my tutorial. Got a break in the middle, bought another coffee. Went home after tutorial. Collapsed on bed.

How my Thursday went

Got up at like 6:30, caught a 7:15 bus, had a lecture at 9-11 and a tute from 11-1. It was Human Body 1, a biology subject, and it was awesome. Unlike my other subjects, we are actually learning things already, instead of getting the old "Welcome to U-ni-ver-si-ty. We know you are new, and will be nice, okay?" speech. Then i walked to the Botanics with him, read my Doctor Who book while he drafted an essay. climbed a tree. Walked to the bus. Caught it to his house. Played mario. Got driven home. Was accused of being harsh, pointed out it was sarcasm, felt bad for making him feel like i was being serious. Ranted to his face about how he is 50 times better than me, far too good for me, amazing, wonderful, crazy. Got asked out. Said yes. Told Stef, had a 2 hour phone call as a result. Ended my relationship with Gilbert Blythe on facebook. Freaked out.

i
have
a boyfriend.

"Whenever we talk, I feel like there's a lot more going on inside you than you ever let anyone see."
This may be a quote from my Animal Crossing for the Wii, but it honestly couldn't apply to me any more. It's freaky.

Apparently it's one of the things he likes about me, that i'm kinda mysterious and secretive, and sometimes difficult to figure out. He also likes that i look at the tops of buildings rather than the street level, that i have an unusual love of old things and how i am super observent. Thing is, i didn't even notice these things about myself, until he pointed them out? As i'm spending more time with him, i'm finding new things about my own personality, too.
"The more we learn about each other, the more we learn about ourselves" ~First Doctor

Everything is pretty much fine now. I get to see him Thursday ^_^
My day starts at 6AM tomorrow, 8AM tutorial! Should be fun. Then i have to wait around in the city for 5 hours... i think i'll take a Pratchett book and read in the Botanics until about 12:30, then i'll head down to City West and hang out with some people i haven't seen since last year, which will be nice :)

My phone, i have accepted, is fucked. I'm going to use my old one until i can afford a new one.
I am not going to drink again. I've been really depressed over it lately, because i always promised i'd never do that to myself... and i really feel like i've let myself down, and God down. I feel like such a failure right now.
Not to mention i'm underprepared for Uni right now and it's all really overwhelming and i just can't shrug the feeling that i should be doing an art degree instead of Nursing...